facing discouragement

OK, so I know that I say over and over again that I just want to be healthier and feel better about myself, but I am still so tied to the number on that scale. Especially on Saturday mornings at Weight Watchers. In case you hadn't guessed, my results were not near where I wanted them to be this past weekend. In fact, since working my butt out and eating right all week, I was still only down one pound. I was especially discouraged because I was .4 pounds away from 20 pounds lost and 1.4 away from my 10% goal I have been striving for for so long. I was in tears when I weighed in. I really thought that I had done it last week. I did stay for the meeting, though, and was a bit encouraged with the talk of goal making and hearing other members express their own frustrations. I am not in this battle alone.

When I got home, I talked to Matt about it a bit, and he put me in my place. He asked if I was looking for a number on a scale or to be healthier. If what I want is to manipulate that scale, I can do so with cheap tricks. But if health is what I'm after, I need to keep doing what I'm doing. It will pay off eventually. What a great husband to remind me of my goals and love me in my discouragement!

I did use that number on the scale as a tool to evaluate what I am doing and how it is working. Looking through my tracker, I don't think I have been eating enough, especially with the amount of trips to the gym I've been making. So, I made a conscious decision to go over the points that I'm allotted each day and use some of those activity points on a regular basis. Unfortunately, this also gave me a bit of license to eat how I wanted yesterday. I didn't do quite as poorly as I could have, but I did enjoy some lo mein, cake and pizza. Wow. That sounds bad. But I had the points to use, and we've all got to enjoy ourselves once in awhile. It was the big game and we were celebrating my birthday. Both good excuses :-)

I didn't make it to the gym on Saturday. I had a wedding shower to attend, and Matt and I celebrated our 2 year dating anniversary with a re-created first date. It was wonderful. I was going to try and make the missed session up with a trip on Sunday, but between church and lunch and hanging with his family, I just couldn't do it. So, I was one day shy last week. Hopefully I'll be back to 5 days this week, starting tonight. I also get to try a new recipe this evening after getting back home from the gym. It's Mandarin Chicken straight from the Biggest Loser Family Cookbook. I'll keep you posted on how it turns out.

Well, it's back to work for now. Here's to a great week 3!